Hello friends

Another day has passed and the sun shone warmly today. I was thinking back about how I suffered terribly from depression...deep depression. I knew that something was wrong before I was diagnosed but I couldn't put my finger on it. I had felt that way for so long that it was a natural state except that there was a deeper hole within me.
My thoughts were a mess. I couldn't concentrate on the simplest things. I let my outer looks go. Even my children suffered right along with me as did my husband. Everyone was frustrated with me. I just wanted to die. The thought of taking my own life entered my mind many times but my "heart" did not want to die. I wanted to live and see my children grow. I wanted to live and see what the purpose of my life was all about. Surely my life wasn't supposed to be like this! I hit bottom hard a couple of times but each time rose up, bound and determined to win. My faith saved me. I still have my struggles, but, depression can be overcome with the right help.
Writing became one of my saving graces. I used to write everything out by hand but I suffer from fibromyalgia and osteoarthritis and my fingers and wrists just don't have the strength to endure long writing episodes, hence, the computer. My awesome brother bought me this computer and the keys have not stopped ticking since. I will always be grateful to him for his thoughtful & generous gift. He had faith in me as a writer and he believed in me. I will never be able to thank him enough.
This is all for now.
Goodnight dear friends!